So... it is true what you heard... i did indeed go to a Bridal Expo today. I have always wanted to go to one and my bff being engaged gave me the perfect opportunity. We went together and I fulfilled the Maid-Of-Honor expectations of carrying things and chatting with the booth workers while she filled out sheets of papers for drawings.
I did my job well! I made witty chit-chat and lugged around a probably 25 pound plastic bag full of randow crap. I realized that, right now, i am playing the side kick in a romantic-comedy movie. My roommate is the main character... he even flew to London (where we were studying abroad) to propose. Although their lives are not perfect, their romance is pretty ideal. She is that hectic, caught-up-in-love beautiful lead star! I am the also cute but in a more "just friends" type of way. I am witty and unsure and trying to help her. I am the girl that everyone says "she deserves someone great. she is so great." I like being that girl (though it does get lonely) and am not ready to be the lead in a romantic comedy. I would not mind, however, being the lead of a movie like Sisterhood of Travelling Pants. I would be traveling and developing my strengths; one day there will be a romantic sequel!
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
stars of friendship
are you impressed by the title? i am not sure if it really reflects what this blog is going to be about but it is better than "unnamed blog."
I was lying in bed, trying to calm my body and mind from a stressful day of writing papers, when I imagined my happy place. Everyone has their happy place. I went to a yoga class once and we had to imagine a place completely free of stress. My oasis is the beach at night.
Then I realized that I am more drawn to the nighttime than daytime. Perhaps my favorite high school memories are going to the beach with my friends at nights, laying on a blanket to stare at the stars and talk. My best friends and I loved it. The tranquility of the ocean yet possibility in the stars. Later, when studying abroad, I would be waiting for the bus alone or with friends and I would just stare at the stars. Trying to figure out if my family can even see the same stars that I can. Since I have been back in the U.S., I find myself staring up late at night while walking home from class.
My favorite time to drive, which has always been an escape, is at night. It is the most dangerous, granted, but it is also quiet, clean, cool, and less busy. So, are other people this drawn to the nighttime? Is it just me? I would not be surprised but how can you not love the night air! I just thought I would share this tidbit of info... see if my happy place truly is solitary.
I was lying in bed, trying to calm my body and mind from a stressful day of writing papers, when I imagined my happy place. Everyone has their happy place. I went to a yoga class once and we had to imagine a place completely free of stress. My oasis is the beach at night.
Then I realized that I am more drawn to the nighttime than daytime. Perhaps my favorite high school memories are going to the beach with my friends at nights, laying on a blanket to stare at the stars and talk. My best friends and I loved it. The tranquility of the ocean yet possibility in the stars. Later, when studying abroad, I would be waiting for the bus alone or with friends and I would just stare at the stars. Trying to figure out if my family can even see the same stars that I can. Since I have been back in the U.S., I find myself staring up late at night while walking home from class.
My favorite time to drive, which has always been an escape, is at night. It is the most dangerous, granted, but it is also quiet, clean, cool, and less busy. So, are other people this drawn to the nighttime? Is it just me? I would not be surprised but how can you not love the night air! I just thought I would share this tidbit of info... see if my happy place truly is solitary.
Monday, April 14, 2008
dream
So... let me first say that I am an Office fan. I think it is an hilarious show. Love it!
But, I am not obsessed with it. A lot of people can quote from it verbatim and decorate their myspace Office-themed. Not I!
I was surprise, therefore, when my dream was all Office characters. I don't exactly remember what happened but at the end, I had kinda replaced Pam and was dating Jim. The most clear part of my dream that I remember was sitting beside Jim... holding hands. It was like we were both happy... just sitting together.
Sometimes I think that people who are in relationships take the small things for granted. It is the small things that matter. Just like in the movie Wedding Singer when Robbie is describing how he knew that his ex-girlfriend did not love him. She didn't let him have the window seat as they were flying to the Grand Canyon, although she had already seen it all. The big things (politics, religion, family) are important but it is the small things that make a relationship strong... unique... special.
Most recently, my friends and I went to this party. There was lots of music and drinking. (we are not really party-ers so we didn't handle it very well) My best friend's fiance was in town and went to the party with us but did not drink because he was the DD. When the party was over and they went to their hotel room, he took care of her. (not in a dirty way) he took down her hair (she had it all bobby-pined in place) so that she wouldn't have a head ache in the morning. he put her flowers in a vase. he went ahead and went to the vending machine to get a Sprite and crackers for the next morning hang-over. he was very considerate. a couple days later, as she and I were talking, she told me how considerate he had been. it is because of that consideration that she knows that he loves her and that she wants to marry him. that was a long story and perhaps a waste of blog space but no one really reads this anyway so who cares!
I hope all of you who are in that type of relationship appreciate it! If you are settling for less, stop it! You deserve this kind of love.
But, I am not obsessed with it. A lot of people can quote from it verbatim and decorate their myspace Office-themed. Not I!
I was surprise, therefore, when my dream was all Office characters. I don't exactly remember what happened but at the end, I had kinda replaced Pam and was dating Jim. The most clear part of my dream that I remember was sitting beside Jim... holding hands. It was like we were both happy... just sitting together.
Sometimes I think that people who are in relationships take the small things for granted. It is the small things that matter. Just like in the movie Wedding Singer when Robbie is describing how he knew that his ex-girlfriend did not love him. She didn't let him have the window seat as they were flying to the Grand Canyon, although she had already seen it all. The big things (politics, religion, family) are important but it is the small things that make a relationship strong... unique... special.
Most recently, my friends and I went to this party. There was lots of music and drinking. (we are not really party-ers so we didn't handle it very well) My best friend's fiance was in town and went to the party with us but did not drink because he was the DD. When the party was over and they went to their hotel room, he took care of her. (not in a dirty way) he took down her hair (she had it all bobby-pined in place) so that she wouldn't have a head ache in the morning. he put her flowers in a vase. he went ahead and went to the vending machine to get a Sprite and crackers for the next morning hang-over. he was very considerate. a couple days later, as she and I were talking, she told me how considerate he had been. it is because of that consideration that she knows that he loves her and that she wants to marry him. that was a long story and perhaps a waste of blog space but no one really reads this anyway so who cares!
I hope all of you who are in that type of relationship appreciate it! If you are settling for less, stop it! You deserve this kind of love.
Monday, April 7, 2008
love
when my roommate has just spent the whole weekend with her fiance....
and he bought her roses and a new camera....
and they spent all of Sunday in their hotel room....
then, three after he leaves, they are on the phone telling each other how much they miss each other...
i want to grab the phone out of her hand, throw it on the ground as hard as i possibly can, pull a mallet out of thin and smash it to such small pieces that i could blow it away into the wind like a dandelion.
she would be sad... but would i feel bad? i do not know. i do care for her but i am usually also very pissed off. this is a moment in time when i am torn but not into as many pieces as her phone will be one day! :~)
and he bought her roses and a new camera....
and they spent all of Sunday in their hotel room....
then, three after he leaves, they are on the phone telling each other how much they miss each other...
i want to grab the phone out of her hand, throw it on the ground as hard as i possibly can, pull a mallet out of thin and smash it to such small pieces that i could blow it away into the wind like a dandelion.
she would be sad... but would i feel bad? i do not know. i do care for her but i am usually also very pissed off. this is a moment in time when i am torn but not into as many pieces as her phone will be one day! :~)
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Awk Club
just a quick thought as I am still procrastinating the 4 page paper due in 9 and 1/2 hours (which i need to get some sleep in).
sometimes people are not so bad. sometimes people do forgive and forget. you might be surprised who is willing to start a'new.
how will you know if you never ask? wondering will only make you go crazy. just do it! (not that i am trying to copy the army's slogan)
what is the worst thing that could happen? an awkward moment? awkward is okay. it is natural. sometimes... i enjoy being awkward. if you try something new and it does not quite work out then welcome to the awkward club. feel free to dress inappropriate, say the wrong thing at the wrong time, and challenge other people at this club. freeing, isn't it?
sometimes people are not so bad. sometimes people do forgive and forget. you might be surprised who is willing to start a'new.
how will you know if you never ask? wondering will only make you go crazy. just do it! (not that i am trying to copy the army's slogan)
what is the worst thing that could happen? an awkward moment? awkward is okay. it is natural. sometimes... i enjoy being awkward. if you try something new and it does not quite work out then welcome to the awkward club. feel free to dress inappropriate, say the wrong thing at the wrong time, and challenge other people at this club. freeing, isn't it?
Saturday, March 29, 2008
wedding bells are a'ringing!
I realize that I just posted a blog. But that was an introduction... sort of. I do have something on my mind.
I am a twenty-something year old, pretty young woman who is about to graduate and has endless possibilities. I have a good number of loyal, amazing friends. I do well in my classes... leading to a feeling of accomplishment. I have been to New York, L.A., London, Paris, and many places in Italy. (I am a very lucky girl for all this!) This morning I woke up at 8 AM (after not getting in till 2 AM) for a workshop that taught me to accept my inner self. I learned how to make a Soul Collage and to bind a book. (both very fun!) I know what you are thinking... I have it all. (please sense my sarcasm!)
So... why should I be blogging. Blogging is for people who have been upset and disappointed and want to let out their feelings in writing. In hopes that someone will read it and sympathize. And then everything will be okay because someone else has been through the same thing? I am not sure about this. I secretly hope that a guy will read this, realize all of the amazing things about me (without even meeting me) and it will be a fairy-tale. But... who will read this? why read this? I am just another girl in her quarterlife complaining about guys, jobs, friends, and life.
I saw the movie 27 dresses tonight. It was very cute... funny, hot guy, happy ending. I even teared up in a couple parts, out of happiness and sadness. who could ask for more? my roommate sitting beside me, who is on cloud nine because she is getting married in one year and two months, loves the movie. And I think that i would have liked it in the past. I used to eat up those female porns. (which, of course, I mean the movies that set our standards impossibly high, making reality seem unworthy, but are impossible to stop watching) but now i leave unhappy. they are not very realistic... yet i can't even bring myself to dream about it. i am pretty sure that i will be get married eventually... but i am not positive anymore. i don't know if i can be one of those 30 year old women who have never had a serious relationship.... i don't know if i am strong enough.
but... hey... at least i don't have to wear dress like the one at the beginning of this post to my best friend's wedding!
new beginning
What a horrible title. Could it be more cliche? Really... I don't think it could. I would like to think of something better but it is late and I just took a long swig of Parrot's Bay Mango rum. I am not in the late-night title-writing mood.
So, I just wanted to set up an intro blog of sorts. I don't really blog that often. I am an English major but I don't really right. (should I change my major? perhaps! but it is too late.) But, actually, I love being an English major. I love reading and sharing my ideas about a text. Writing is so essential to a civilization. you know? (i just realized that I have no idea who I am addressing... who are you?)
I actually just set up this blog because my professor suggested it. And I thought "I should be a good English major and begin writing. Perhaps I will be amazing at it!"
So, I just wanted to set up an intro blog of sorts. I don't really blog that often. I am an English major but I don't really right. (should I change my major? perhaps! but it is too late.) But, actually, I love being an English major. I love reading and sharing my ideas about a text. Writing is so essential to a civilization. you know? (i just realized that I have no idea who I am addressing... who are you?)
I actually just set up this blog because my professor suggested it. And I thought "I should be a good English major and begin writing. Perhaps I will be amazing at it!"
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