love

when my roommate has just spent the whole weekend with her fiance....
and he bought her roses and a new camera....
and they spent all of Sunday in their hotel room....
then, three after he leaves, they are on the phone telling each other how much they miss each other...

i want to grab the phone out of her hand, throw it on the ground as hard as i possibly can, pull a mallet out of thin and smash it to such small pieces that i could blow it away into the wind like a dandelion.

she would be sad... but would i feel bad? i do not know. i do care for her but i am usually also very pissed off. this is a moment in time when i am torn but not into as many pieces as her phone will be one day! :~)